8/17/2022 – Today Sucked!!!!

Okay, I know not everyday is going to be wonderful, I know Chemo is hard on your body, but I think you should at least get some wins once in awhile. Today was rough. Dave has not eaten since Saturday morning. He has zero, I mean zero energy. He just wants to sleep (and pee). He has sores in his mouth and down his throat. I won’t get to graphic, but his butt is raw (I didn’t realize how raw until today). He is beaten down and just not Dave 😞. I bugged him enough today that he drank a chocolate milk and ensure clear, apple flavored. But that is not enough. So they are starting TPN, that is nutrition you get through your IV, it bypasses your intestinal tract. (Steak in a bag 🤣). He needs some nutrition. They are giving him blood, they said that should help with his energy. But they hadn’t started it by the time I left. I am there every day, I will do whatever it takes to help him through this. I have said it before…he is my person, there isn’t anything I won’t do. Today, after we figured out how raw Dave’s butt is, they gave him pain relief by mouth and IV. He hates taking pain relievers, but he needed them. He was really high 🤦‍♀️. He tells me “you should go home and get some of your stuff done”……..I said “well, I could, I just hate leaving you” – he hugged me and said “I know if you were half way home and I called you, you would turn around and come back”. I cried and we just hugged and hugged. They are postponing the chemo that starts next week, they said Dave needs to heal – so I don’t know when that’s rescheduled. His kidneys had not improved today, but they think they will get better. So we are at an impasse, Dave needs to heal so they can try and kill him off again 🤦‍♀️……I know, I’m negative Nancy, but what he is going through is horrible.